Someday

Someday I’ll dance for all the world to see

Someday I’ll dance, and they’ll know I am free!

My two-step will lead the way

I’ll count each breath, every minute, every second of every day

Someday

Someday I’ll stand at the edge of a cliff

Jumping up and down, I’ll use my vocalizer to scream – I am free!

There will be nobody; Just me, myself and I

 I’ll make a solemn vow, we three will never go our separate ways

Someday

Someday I’ll walk in the wild

Telling my natural mother – I am free!

I’ve done my very best on Earth, both with four legged and two

Now take me home to thee

Someday

Someday, I’ll know who I am

What I am worth

And who is worth me

Cause I’ll see it in His eyes

And He will see it in mine

Someday

~CBS~

Fading Away

Like the last drop of dew

Hanging by a prayer

From her faint heart she weeps

Weeps out her despair

She guards her love against her bosom

So no one can see

The darkness that clouds her world

Her vision an empty serenity

While you stripped away her nakedness

She begged you for life

What was not hers to give, yet was your's to take

You took it all without any guilt or strife

She now lies in shambles, worn and forlorn

Hopelessly waiting for dawn, come morn

Her prayers go unanswered, the silence seems long

To bring meaning back into her miserable existence

She rises from the darkness

Brushes off her bruises, to stand again strong

~CBS~

News that makes me angry

GOVERNMENT'S TOP AWARD FOR FIREMEN BRAVERY: RS 100


It is news like this which upsets me. If you can hit a ball the government will gift you a house, car, property, no to forget the crores you make through endorsement of XYZ products. Then along comes a fireman who saves your effing backside... AND THIS IS HOW WE THANK THEM!

Salute to the Indian men in uniform!

This is what the Karnataka deemed the perfect gift for our brave firefighters. Rs 100.

They should return the money back asking the government to shove it where the sun don't shine.

Blood boiling as I pen this. After the World Cup and IPL crap, just goes to show how people think in this country.

WAKE UP AND SMELL THE B***S*** PEOPLE!

Its not easy to be me...

I 'actually' started following Lent last year. First Lent. I decided to skip my afternoon meal and facebook. I cheated on facebook by going through my notifications on gmail. Ha ha. As for the meal, well I did miss it but I made up for it by eating double at about 4 pm (chai break after all).

This year I decided to push myself. No non-veg, no alcohol (I was looking for an excuse to give it up completely anyway), no facebook (yeah again), no chatting and no stupid spending.

Let us take my abstinence to the above-mentioned one by one.

No non-veg: I had egg. Had too. Needed calcium. Not an excuse but that is the only thing I allowed myself. BUT I cheated once. Mom made tongue curry and I smelt it every time I put my nose in the fridge. Then one day I cleaned the kitchen and saw the handi in there and was like - chuck it man. I need to TASTE!!! Felt like a kid who had gotten caught with her hand in the cookie jar when my nana came to see what I was up to. Hmmm...

No alcohol: Stuck to it like glue thankyouverymuch! I have decided one beer as a social thing. But that is it. No more hard liquor. I'm done.

No facebook: I gave in to temptation occasionally to see what people were doing. I tried. I succeeded partly. Next year I will be stronger. (I may close my account, maybe)

No chatting: Worked. Only chatted with Chelson. Have too. No compromise there.

No stupid spending: Worked that one well. Saved over three grand. *sigh* If only Lent came every alternate month.

What I stopped, made me start things I normally pushed off. Started praying more, playing the guitar more, blogging, calligraphy, practiced typing, reading, walking, spending more time learning new things... I dunno, I have done tons these 6-7 weeks. I know.

I'm not  proud of the promises I broke but during my reflections every day I realised that Lent is there to remind me that no matter how many times I fail and fall, Christ tells me to pick myself right back up and try again. Moreover, if I falter along the way again, stand right back up and walk with head held high.

I mean look at it this way. The Stations of the Cross take us through the pain and agony Christ suffered for our sins. He fell three times, maybe more, stumbled, was spat at, hurled stones at, abused, beaten, crown of thorns dug into his skull... I mean the movie 'Passion of Christ' just showed us how brutal we as people could be. However, through His divine spirit he was able to carry his mortal body on to Golgotha.

Even in His last hour, He chose to forgive.

I will never forget the words - Eli, Eli, lamma sabacthani? That is, "My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?"

The beauty of Christ's undying love for us lie in those words, lie in the very cry that he makes to God to answer him. All of us cry out to God to save us from the pain that we are in, always questioning His ways, always asking - do we ever say Thank You for graces we do receive?

To conclude, I just want to reiterate to those who see my weakness as a waste of time for doing it. I tried. I may have failed in your eyes, but in Christ’s I have won the fight! J That is the beauty of being human. No matter how often we fall, He holds our hand and guides us towards the right path again.

Was reading a bit and found this so thought I would share them.

Seven sayings

The seven sayings form part of a Christian meditation that are often used during Lent, Holy Week and Good Friday. The traditional order of the sayings is:

Father forgive them, for they know not what they do (Luke 23:34).

Truly, I say to you, today you will be with me in paradise (Luke 23:43).

Woman, behold your son: behold your mother (John 19:26-27).

My God, My God, why have you forsaken me, (Matthew 27:46 and Mark 15:34).

I thirst (John 19:28).

It is finished (John 19:30).

Father, into your hands I commit my spirit (Luke 23:46).

May we never lose heart when faced with the contempt  of this world which ridicules our obedience to Your will

I sang and played the song Superman by Five for Fighting - A favourite of mine, which reminds me always that it truly is not easy to be ME!

God Bless.

Another day, another lie

So much in my mind, confused half the time
Yelling at self, brings not the least bit calm
The silence is even worse, worse than the despair
I feel

Eyes are filled with sweet blood that ran dry
Soft and forlorn I lie dead to the world
Lost in the spiral of never ending lies
My fear has taken over, the end is near


Denying self pleasure is not as bad as knowing
I will never see those black pools
That sunk me beneath the frail walls
To lie chained for the rest of eternity

I scrape the rock hoping to hear you call my name
The air lies still and empty around me
Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
Just another day, just another lie

I am devoid of the ache

                                                                               Now and forever...

                                                                                                         ~CBS~

Can India's modern day Gandhi 'Anna Hazare' bring about an Obama-styled CHANGE?

By now, you all must have heard about “Anna Hazare’s fasts unto death”, “Jan LokPal Bill”, “India Against Corruption Movement” etc… See if you can pitch in with even the smallest of your contribution in any way.

Latest News:

Anna Hazare’s fast enters fourth day



Government in dilemma as Anna's fast enters fourth day


Anna Hazare's 5-point letter to PM

What is the Jan Lokpal Bill?

Drafted by Justice Santosh Hegde, Prashant Bhushan and Arvind Kejriwal, this Bill has been refined on the basis of feedback received from the public on websites and after series of public consultations. It has also been vetted by and is supported by Shanti Bhushan, J M Lyngdoh, Kiran Bedi, Anna Hazare etc. It was sent to the PM and all CMs on December 1, 2010, but there has been no update on its implementation since then.


1. An institution called LOKPAL at the centre and LOKAYUKTA in each state will be set up.

2. Like the Supreme Court and the Election Commission, they will be completely independent of all governments. No minister or bureaucrat will be able to influence their investigations.

3. Cases against corrupt people will not linger for years anymore: Investigations in any case will have to be completed in one year. Trial should be completed in next one year so that the corrupt politician, officer or judge is sent to jail within two years.

4. The loss that a corrupt person caused to the government will be recovered at the time of conviction.

5. How will it help a common citizen: If any work of any citizen is not done in prescribed time in any government office, Lokpal will impose financial penalty on guilty officers, which will be given as compensation to the complainant.

6. So, you could approach Lokpal if your ration card or passport or voter card is not being made or if police is not registering your case or any other work is not being done in prescribed time. Lokpal will have to get it done in a month’s time. You could also report any case of corruption to Lokpal like ration being siphoned off, poor quality roads being constructed or panchayat funds being siphoned off. Lokpal will have to complete its investigations in a year, trial will be over in next one year and the guilty will go to jail within two years.

7. But won’t the government appoint corrupt and weak people as Lokpal members? That won’t be possible because its members will be selected by judges, citizens and constitutional authorities and not by politicians, through a completely transparent and participatory process.

8. What if some officer in Lokpal becomes corrupt? The entire functioning of Lokpal/ Lokayukta will be completely transparent. Any complaint against any officer of Lokpal shall be investigated and the officer dismissed within two months.


9. What will happen to existing anti-corruption agencies? CVC, departmental vigilance and anti-corruption branch of CBI will be merged into Lokpal. Lokpal will have complete powers and machinery to independently investigate and prosecute any officer, judge or politician.


Why fast unto death? Will our deaf government listen to this?


Last time when Anna sat on a fast -

• 6 corrupt ministers in Maharashtra had to resign
• 400 corrupt officers were dismissed from job
• 2002 - Maharashtra RTI Act was passed
• 2006 - Central Government withdrew its proposal to amend Central RTI Act

Now Anna is fasting to demand Jan Lokpal Bill. JAN LOKPAL BILL will act as a deterrent and instill fear in the minds of corrupt people.

Last but not the least…What can YOU Do?

· Sign up to fast for a day to show your Solidarity with Anna Hazare


· Contact the City Coordinators to participate in the local rally/other activities in your city to support

· Keep a tab on this initiative by checking the latest news

P.S: These are not my words but a mail doing the rounds. Show your support by sending this to people. Forwarding this mail to your contacts is also a kind gesture of your contribution towards this movement.

Change is coming!!!

Kitchen tales with my right hand chef!

Got some time to kill so just wanted to write about the gazillion things that drive Chelsea each moment, of every minute, of every hour, of every day.

A great day so far. I attempted to make dal with drumsticks and a side dish of cabbage and potatoes with my Jane Doe - Nana dearest. Lol. It was a treat. She snuck up to the gas adding her own ingredients every time my back was turned. And a couple of glasses of water because - 'the cabbage wasn't cooking na chelsea'

The culprit behind my
masterpieces in the kitchen :P

... lol. I just stared at her.

"That's what I do too!!!"

Like Godmother, like grandchild, I always say.

I go to wash my hands only to come back to find some drumsticks floating in the cabbage. If you've ever seen videos of logs of wood floating downstream... well that's what my cabbage bhajji looked like. I yelled... NANA!!!!

She did the one thing she deserves an Oscar for... DAK - Deny All Knowledge.

I swear that woman is a first class act. You end up doubting your own intelligence and learn to swallow that the resident ghost was up to no good and did said mischief.

Then came the daal. 'Have you put salt?' I must have answered that question about a minimum 15 times. Ultimately, I forgot if I had put salt or not. So I added some.

Salty daal with drumsticks are in vogue people.

But it is fun cooking with my Grandmother/Godmother. So, you basically have two people in the kitchen - one who writes recipes on small scraps of paper and fixes a dish by throwing in her secret ingredient re: curd while the other doesn't remember she can cook but knows the ins and outs of a kitchen!

Who'll build the Church, We'll build the Church!

Going for collections every weekend is rewarding. For not only the spirit that it fills us with but also knowing, you are doing God's work.

I have been going off and on for almost two years now. And each visit to a new Church is filled with excitement, fun and most of all 'Hope' that people will donate generously through their pockets as well as send us loads of love through their prayers and best wishes.

It's a miracle. Every single time.

You feel so touched when you see the parishioners and the resident priests open their homes and their Church to us. They not only make you feel welcome but make you feel like you are one of them. Some of the Churches we have visited, have parishioners sharing their journey of the struggle they had to go through to build their Church and how they persevered and endeavoured, with a never-say-die attitude: WE WILL HAVE A CHURCH!

In God's good time, of course.

Transport is arranged for as well as refreshments and lunch, not to forget you get to know more parishioners from our parish but who knows, you might end up meeting that schoolteacher you troubled back in the day, or some of your family and friends. Trust me, we keep meeting people who ask us, 'Do you know Mrs. X or Mr. Y from your area?'

We go to the same Church for two consecutive weekends. The first weekend we go around handing out envelopes after every mass. Fr. Austin is our PR guy. He gets people noticing us with his flair for languages by pitching to them our need to build a Church. There is no fiction involved. He lays down the facts straight and simple - who we are, where we are located, how much we have collected, how much more do we need and how they can help us.

The following Sunday we go back to the same Church to collect the envelopes and have people drop them in our boxes. Simple isn't it?

I encourage those who have never gone through such an experience to sign up for this challenge. You go out not only representing St. Joseph but you go out as a witness to Christ. Moreover, as witnesses of Christ, this is our first small step - standing proudly with our sashes and caps and dabbas, asking for help from our own flock.

Also don't worry about breakfast, tea, lunch, snacks, etc... Your mama won't recognise you after Fr. Austin is done feeding you all the wada's and chai possible :D