~Timeless~

Listen up!

I don't wanna feel anything anymore

I just wanna be free of your hold

I want you gone cause I don't think I'm over you yet, if ever
Yet, in a way I am... Make sense?
...I'm not myself!

But I refuse to believe the sun has set on me
Even though I know you've given up on me
My feelings are frozen like my name suggests
Burned by all the lies
Just want you to call and say it's gonna be all right
Cause we got each other babe!

But your so You!

You don't see the endless yearning in my eyes

While I'm driving around in circles

One more shot, one more chance?

I can't risk it, vulnerable to the bone

Life's fucked me over way too many times

For me to risk you, risk us

I love you in my own way,

But I'll find my footing again...

I Hope.

:")

 

~Inner Peace~

I have been sailing in bad weather for a while as many people will attest. I can finally say, however, that I am sailing the seven seas high and dry again... As the winds HAVE changed!

I am not sure how, to be honest. Something I heard, something I felt, something I saw, something I read... I really don't know. What I do know is it's a combination of all the factors that have been playing out over the last couple of months and all of that has culminated into one single moment which is etched so perfectly in my eyes.

Did I waste a lot of time? Yes and no. Yes, cause I am sure there were better things to achieve and accomplish than day-dreaming. No, because the dreams contained You. I learned even with all that pain, there were droplets of happiness. So I am thankful and grateful for that. I felt again. That is what I set out to proove to myself anyway. So, mission accomplished.

But I have lost much... And I am not only talking about my weight and love handles. But, hopefully, this is my road to recovery *again*.

I wish I could share what I am feeling right now. It is soooo heady - this feeling of complete bliss, complete in-your-face kind of mojo kick-ass on-top-of-the-world moment, this I-am-perfect and I-am-whole feeling.. It has come at the perfect time!

For now, my yesterdays have all been washed and neatly put away while I continue to feel comfortably numb with inner peace :")

While saying a prayer in the train today morning these words came to me...

When the road is wrought with sadness

And despair blankets you like a sea of pain

Reach out to Christ your Saviour

To help fight the unbeatable tide and live again!

Laughin, Lovin, Livin!

Broken Spirit

Broken Spirit
Don't  let them take me down
Dry my tears, help me face my fears
Laugh with me till I erase that frown

Broken Spirit
How long will the night stay dark
When he looks my way
Is he hear to stay
Or will his shadow steer me clear away

Broken Spirit
Lift your broken arrow
Pierce the wound once more
So that I may feel again
Live again
Love again

Broken Spirit
Hear my silent prayer
Let me go, away from him
Into thy bosom care.

                                                         ~CBS~

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