Too late to apologise but still...

Ever feel like you spend half your life apologising for things you didn't say or that they came out the wrong way or that it was taken out of context or you meant what you said at that point in time but after you calmed down you realised it was a horrible thing to mutter and so you...

Apologise.

Which doesn't count for much AFTER the damage is done.

Anyway to all those I have snapped at, wrote shit about, spoken shit about, bitched about, I really am sorry.

Cleaning out all the cobwebs in my closet right now and then gonna sit inside and lock myself up so that way no more hurtful words come out and play.

I apologise again for the pain and the hurt.

My life after all is one big sorry.

"Sorry is the Kool-Aid of human emotions. It's what you say when you spill a cup of coffee or throw a gutterball when you're bowling with the girls in the leage. True sorrow is as rare as true love."


-- Stephen King, Carrie

Wings of a Dove

Dolly Parton has been one of those country singers who has left a huge scar in my heart with her vocal range and soulful singing. It's great to finally praise God and sing an amazing song sung by her too :)

The Beautiful Letdown

Lost myself for a nickel for a minute back there.

In 26 years, I have been through much tougher situations where circumstances before me have left me rubbing my face in the snow for a long long time. Yet at every faltering step, I got up and plowed through the ice.

I was victorious.

I can and I will do it again. With Christ as my light nothing is to difficult for me.

Point to Self: God will never give me anything I can't handle.

Happiness is where you are and what you want to be
If you look your sure to find the rainbow of your dreams
Tomorrow's fuller than a thousand yesterdays
With a vision of a new day in your heart

Stillness is my neighbour. God is my peace.

I believe...

That I can't fight this world alone
That I will never be strong
That I can't ever see your face again
Cause I know not what's right & what's wrong.

I believe...

That I have no past, no present, no future
That I am this insignificant nobody
That this flickering flame should just die
That all that I have to give
That all of it is dead.

I believe...

That I have lost nothing since I had nothing
That I am a fragile butterfly with wings to burn
That I am a waste of space
That I have no purpose, no road, just numbness to guide me
That like a dew drop, I wish I could go away from here soon.

I believe... d.