Two major events happening in my life.
(1) After nine months, a friend delivers a healthy baby boy.
(2) After a few years of battling AIDS, a friend's mom fights for survival.
While one hand of mine felt a child's warm body, the other hand grasped a frail mother's bedside as she struggles to live for her three young daughters after their father passed away, thanks to the disease.
I'm struggling inside cause this is how unfair life is. Unfair for the eldest daughter who has two young mouths to feed. Unfair cause her relatives are ready to pounce on the small chawl they call home IF the mother dies. Unfair cause I don't think WE as a society, including my Church are doing enough to tell this teenager - You're not alone. I am with You.
When I felt that newborn's heartbeat and his mother's tender love - my anguish was complete.
I've stopped questioning God - Why he? Why she? Why not me? I've stopped.
But I seethe with rage, happless. What else can I do? What else do I do?
Why?
Cause of the haphazard system we have in place for children who are left to fend for themselves, cause of the fallacies of a society standing by silently as a mother fights a losing battle for life, as a forlorn girl fights alone for her parents few belongings, for the lack of a support system to help with medical bills, legal issues, an education for her siblings.
If any one is reading this - please do pray, really PRAY for the new baby, for the mom who wants to live and for my beautiful friend - to give her the strength for the tough road ahead and may she always remember - You are not alone.
That's all I ask.
I want to end with these words which have been swimming in my mind the entire day.
God bless mommy and match box cars
God bless dad and thanks for the stars
God hears "Amen," wherever we are
And I love you
Godspeed, little man
Sweet dreams, little man
Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings
Godspeed
Sweet dreams
~Godspeed (Sweet Dreams) by the Dixie Chicks
(1) After nine months, a friend delivers a healthy baby boy.
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| 'Neath a load of guilt and shame |
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While one hand of mine felt a child's warm body, the other hand grasped a frail mother's bedside as she struggles to live for her three young daughters after their father passed away, thanks to the disease.
I'm struggling inside cause this is how unfair life is. Unfair for the eldest daughter who has two young mouths to feed. Unfair cause her relatives are ready to pounce on the small chawl they call home IF the mother dies. Unfair cause I don't think WE as a society, including my Church are doing enough to tell this teenager - You're not alone. I am with You.
When I felt that newborn's heartbeat and his mother's tender love - my anguish was complete.
I've stopped questioning God - Why he? Why she? Why not me? I've stopped.
But I seethe with rage, happless. What else can I do? What else do I do?
Why?
Cause of the haphazard system we have in place for children who are left to fend for themselves, cause of the fallacies of a society standing by silently as a mother fights a losing battle for life, as a forlorn girl fights alone for her parents few belongings, for the lack of a support system to help with medical bills, legal issues, an education for her siblings.
If any one is reading this - please do pray, really PRAY for the new baby, for the mom who wants to live and for my beautiful friend - to give her the strength for the tough road ahead and may she always remember - You are not alone.
That's all I ask.
I want to end with these words which have been swimming in my mind the entire day.
God bless mommy and match box cars
God bless dad and thanks for the stars
God hears "Amen," wherever we are
And I love you
Godspeed, little man
Sweet dreams, little man
Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings
Godspeed
Sweet dreams
~Godspeed (Sweet Dreams) by the Dixie Chicks
1 comment:
i feel you....amen to that! and truly hope things out better for your friend...
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