It's all in my head...

It's difficult to accept that I am 24 and be -

Someone with a heck of a lot of responsibilities.
Someone who has to do things the "grown-up" way.
Someone who has to be serious and choke back the tears and the %$%$# *&(*^%$%#%$% words when she jams her finger against the door.
Someone who better have a guy, or be getting laid or better be a baby chugging machine.
Someone who has to live up to "other" people's expectations.
Someone who gets a whole lot of unwanted and unwarranted advice.
Someone who can't get carried away on the dance floor.
Someone who has to think a million times before she says anything for fear of antagonizing her family and friends.
Someone who has to start keeping secrets because of the old cliche - why should everyone know what your doing???
Someone who just can't be herself.

I know it's all in my head. I know I choose to live the way I live - not because I HAVE to but because I WANT too.

The choice doesn't bother me... much.

I guess it starts to tick me off when people keep shoving it down my throat that I feel like puking all over them with the bile that arises from all the venom I'd like to spill on them saying HEY! You made your mistakes, and you learned from them - now let me make mine!

Sad as it may seem, our lives are no longer ours because we live by the rules of this capitalistic world. We live the lives of TV celebrities and advertising. We walk and talk like Britney clones and have Brad Pitt bodies. We dress our asses in the latest fashions and want to be rock stars - rightly said by Chad Kroegar.

Whatever happened to the good ol' - I love you for who you are? Or I respect you as a friend for all the times you have stood by me??? Or even thanks for the lunch, it was lovely of you to buy it???

Where is all of that? Where can I find it again? Can I find it again>>>

With no expectations - from my side and yours?