The Diss-Connect

Are you sleeping, are you sleeping?
If you're dreaming are you dreaming of me?
I can't believe you actually picked me...

Hey Chelsea, this is _____, it is 2:33 on a Monday afternoon. I was just calling to see how you were doing; you sounded really up tight last night, made me a little nervous. And, well, it made me nervous, but it sounded like you were nervous, too. I just wanna make sure you are really okay, and I wanted to make sure you were checking in on your medications. You know I love ya! And [record scratch] Take care, honey, I know you're under a lot of pressure. See ya. Bye bye.

I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape, to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
and will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
and will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby girl I never was a woman
Until I saw your black eyes cry and I held your face in my hands
And then I fell down yelling "make it go away" just make a smile
Come back and shine just like it used to be
And then You whispered "How could You do this to me?"

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you.
For you
For you
For you




Hey Chelsea
Hey Chelsea
Hey Chelsea
Hey Chelsea...