~Inner Peace~

I have been sailing in bad weather for a while as many people will attest. I can finally say, however, that I am sailing the seven seas high and dry again... As the winds HAVE changed!

I am not sure how, to be honest. Something I heard, something I felt, something I saw, something I read... I really don't know. What I do know is it's a combination of all the factors that have been playing out over the last couple of months and all of that has culminated into one single moment which is etched so perfectly in my eyes.

Did I waste a lot of time? Yes and no. Yes, cause I am sure there were better things to achieve and accomplish than day-dreaming. No, because the dreams contained You. I learned even with all that pain, there were droplets of happiness. So I am thankful and grateful for that. I felt again. That is what I set out to proove to myself anyway. So, mission accomplished.

But I have lost much... And I am not only talking about my weight and love handles. But, hopefully, this is my road to recovery *again*.

I wish I could share what I am feeling right now. It is soooo heady - this feeling of complete bliss, complete in-your-face kind of mojo kick-ass on-top-of-the-world moment, this I-am-perfect and I-am-whole feeling.. It has come at the perfect time!

For now, my yesterdays have all been washed and neatly put away while I continue to feel comfortably numb with inner peace :")

While saying a prayer in the train today morning these words came to me...

When the road is wrought with sadness

And despair blankets you like a sea of pain

Reach out to Christ your Saviour

To help fight the unbeatable tide and live again!

Laughin, Lovin, Livin!