Lost.

why does my heat beat so sadly
why does my face frown with pain
why does my smile look so empty
as I walk with a limp in the rain

why do my feet walk ever so slowly
as I try and figure my past
why do memories keep on haunting me
when they were never meant to last

why is God so quiet when I need him the most
where is He when the hurt is too much to bear
was I not worth it, Lord?
was I worth nothing at all?
Seems like you just dont care

Need help physically, mentally, emotionally
Yet everyone has their back to my face
The reality can never be changed
Maybe I just ain't worth the chase